Ex-Pats

Well here I find myself, in the blustery wet winds of England, teaching Oh Susannah to my children.  I've Been Workin' on the Railroad is a new favorite, as is She'll Be Comin' 'Round the Mountain.  Michael Row the Boat Ashore, Jump Down Turn Around Pick a Bale o' Cotton, and When I go Down to the River to Pray fascinate them.  I am just happy they are singing!  
This is the time, 18 months in to our adventure, when we can finally re-integrate the aspects of what we shed in coming here.  Aurora is growing sprouts, I am saying no to constant caffeine and yes to dancing yes to singing yes yes yes to flow.  These are the parts I wish to re-integrate. 
A student recently approached me to begin a sacred dance circle for women.  Energy stuff, free dance, holding the space, and I said, It's about time Lord!  So y'all start planning your visits.... 
the singing dancing crazy American has recently been caught having high tea, and she will be delighted to share the joy of roses and cathedrals with you, while happily belting out spirituals along the tramways =)

Tools of the Trade

Hiya!  Something has shifted.  I am excited, exuberant even, about my studies, about my life here, about my children.  Diving in....  I mean, who ever thought I'd do a PhD anyway?  
Now that I am at the PhD level, there is alot more expected of me.  To make it happen, I need to invest in some basic textbooks and tools.  If anyone is so inclined to help me make that investment, I will so much appreciate it!  I have made a wish list:

Hannah's wish list/Tools of the Trade 

Many Blessings! Xx

Spring!

It's spring sang the frog, 
It's spring sang the groundhog, 
It's spring!!  
The birds are chirping and the crocus have once again 
covered the lawns of England :)  
The windows are open and 
my toes can feel the breeze! 
~Delight~

Dizzy

It has been a very long time since life moved slowly.  This whole adventure, coming to Cambridge and settling in, working toward my MA, and now becoming a semazen and a university teacher and a researcher, I haven't slowed down to breathe much. 
I am in the midst of getting clear about what I really desire right now, about letting old cross bonds in my muscular patterning burst for good, about being more a flow of light and less of a mutli-dimensional diamond, there have just been too many sides of me!  Soon these will crystallize into a new vision board, and I will consciously enter this new phase, as it is shaping itself.  
I cannot hold everything anymore, better go toward streaming again, which is its own nerve wracking joy....that's what landed us in England! Sigh~ Breathe~ Candles lit, a glass of wine, tonight is for that quiet space I've been missing.
Peace~

Accomplishment

What a glorious day!

 

Surrender

8 weeks in...
Shattering, that's what this training does to a person, in the less obvious levels of existence.  I weep hysterically sometimes, letting go of everything that I thought I was, and people say to me, you seem so happy...strangely happy.  

The experience of this quality that exists within the turning, it really does "turn" the world upside down, in a deeper way than I ever felt with Polarity, in a more enduring way than I get from being in the studio, the tentacles of the essence weave me new, give me a different cellular configuration, and it is palpable, if not entirely explainable.  
It's not peaches n' cream, I am really grumpy most mornings, and awful vivid dreams, and that's the point of the practice, leading me to surrender, to the point of just letting go of all my conceptualizations, even beauty.  

Color, sound, taste, they don't matter anymore.  I am embodying a different quality now, that is nothing, and how to explain that this nothingness is the most beautiful treasure...my eyes feel to me as if I am a podling, seeing through a glass at once cold and full of prisms, a glass that makes me crazy.  
Now  I let it go...